Hi!

It's been awhile since I posted. We have had a very busy week. Or at least it seems like it.... (?) Let me see I haven't updated either site in a week! I know...... shameful... I'm working on it tho. *S* We went to my parent's house and camped out this last weekend and we had SOOOO Much fun! Cameron is offcially Grandpa's (My dad) boy. LOL. Everything was and still is "Grandpa, grandpa, grandpa".......  Cameron is or at least was mortified of Lawn mowers and such, my dad was sitting on his John Deere tractor and Cam ran right up to him and drove around. I was amazed and my dad was happy! *G* I have some photos I'll add to Cam's site later......

So I'm off to draw something to update..... *Sorry* I Hope everyone is well and happy!!!

*hugs*
manda

YUp-- here I am again! Wee hours of the night prawling around the sites--- *ugh* I can't sleep again!!!! What's wrong with me??  What did I do today??? Oh yea!!! I added a new madosine premade to Cosmic Pixels as well as a Madosine Wedding Page Set which I think turned out Super Duper... how ever I'm still adding some things like a blinky, quilt square, ect.  I didn't have time to get anything done today! I woke up at 10 am (lazy I know)..... we were given an area rug for our kitchen because we have a SLUM lord that wont repair the now tearing kitchen floor... so to keep it from ripping anymore and having him blame it on us... we went with the rug idea..... 'sides, my tootsies wont be cold in the morning anymore!!! Whooo hooo! Anywho.... Adam went to move the frige and messed his back all up.. poor man was on the floor in tears and couldn't move! I was stunned.... and didn't know whether to help him up or leave him there and run (kidding)..... so we took him to emergancy... and I just LOVE how they waster 5 hours of my day to give us in the end two perscriptions... I could've been pixeling people!!!!

Yea Im kidding on that one too! HA!

But really, it was an entire day I'll never get back. Can you sue hospitals for mental stress caused by wasting my day??? LMAO... sorry I'm tired.

I talked to my parental units tonight....I guess we're going to see them this weekend. First time in forever and a day I tell you. My younger brother is moving in with us in July.... he's going to college up here. A-ta-joy!!!!! A lil weeny apartment filled with lotsa peoples! And I'll have to share my computer.... *growls and covers keyboard selfishly* HA!

Nahh... that'll be different. I guess I better log off now huh??? Alright.... Gnight.

Not much going on today... it's been raining... I didn't draw much other than a few things for Cosmic Line Art.... Cameron has a new adoptable on his site ( http://cameronchase.tk ) He bought it from Randa. It's cute! I changed the set on Cosmic Line art... guess it's okay...

Other than that nothing exciting amigos!!! Sorry.

*huggles*
Manda

Morning.....

SO I get to thinking this morning right? Which is completely abnormal for me.... I don't usually think I just do and than think about it later... usually causes more mayhem than I wish for. HA! I got in touch with a friend.... that in every aspect could've been my long lost sister from yadayada land.... *smirks* I met her 3 (?) Years ago in a mommy group I created. We've done it all together... groups, online Im'ing till wee hours.... and LAUGH!! All I remember is laughing every 5 seconds talking to her. She also changed my life.... there was a point in time where I thought all was hopeless, lost, I'd never find the right direction ever again. But I did with her love, support and advice. And I'm so thankful --- YOU Know I am...  I did some bad things --- most awful was lying... I lied to her. I broke that circle of trust that was strong.. .and completely dimolished it.. and than took off. Not too long ago my life was in shambles.... I had left my fiance, was broke, lived with my Uncle, had nada to my name and was scared. I was lost in the void... what I thought, never to be found again. I lost faith in my self, my family, my love, my friends, EVERYthing. I woke up one morning at 3am... this is true I tell you. Laying in the lil camper I had setup out back for privacy... it had been 4 months since I spoke to my friends, 4 months since I seen Adam.... 4 months since I smilied. I had lost weight... nearly 20 pounds, I was sick, tired, confused and depressed. Anyways- I woke up.... and you know the first thought that hit me...... the VERY BERRY first thing? God. I wasn't even awake... and that was the ONLY and first thing. I looked over at Cameron and thought.... God blessed me when he gave me Cam... he changed my life, put me in the right direction, and gave me something more precious than money, materials, ect. God blessed me when I met Adam... without Adam's love, support, and sometimes delirious behavior I wouldn't be who I am today or where I am at. God Blessed me when he choose the parents I have because they're the best. They love me, accept me, guide me, beat me- I mean.... LOL..joking.... and most of all God blessed me in a point in my life where I had NO friends, no outside communication when I met Randa. (her name is revealed HA! *opps*) I live in a city of violence, hate, and mean people. I dont want friends like that... no interest. Randa lives far away... but we still talked everyday.... emailed.... stayed in touch.... she taught about many things, we laughed, we cried, we nagged, we bit$hed... we had fun. I had never in my entire life had such a relationship with someone other than my family and adam.. and I had never loved someone so much. Yup- I love her. So back to the waking up.... I decided that day.. that if I don't take heed and lead my own life and STOP living for others.... than I'm going to get no where, I'll never be happy, ect. And i did.. I pushed fear aside and grabbed the reigns. I made a promise to myself, my family and friends, never to betray again.... and I haven't. I'm not saying I changed in ONE day.... or ONE month... but I've changed. I've taken a whole new direction with myself and my life. And it's been good. I still cry sometimes.. .to think about all that I ahve done... YA! I cried... because when you have such a close relationship with someone and you lie.... you loose that person and you're left with nada. It hurts...but it's your own dang fault! I still don't know the point of this entry....

Maybe to say that YOU (YEAH YOU) shouldn't be asking for my forgiveness.....I should be asking for your's. I just want you to know that your friendship means the world to me and I wouldn't sacrifice that for anything. That I know it will take time to earn that trust back.. to pick up where we left off.. but I think it's worth it. And I want you to know that you're an awesome perons with a level head, strong morals, and values. I respect that... and I like that. You're sassy sometimes... but ya know. LOL. Sorry. Anyways........ IM SORRY. And I hope that from this day forward that our friendship bloosoms.... and is blessed with the same love it had before.

*wipes a tear* Now I feel like a nard.....HA!

Manda

I've been drawing all day!!!

I talked to my mom and dad today... they had the most awful day yesterday.  There was an awful car crash right in front of their friend's house they were visiting. Read it HERE It's soooo sad. My mom is/was an EMT and my dad is/was a fireman and my younger brother is trained (he graduted from Criminal Justice and similar programs) for emergancy situations. Anyways.... they tried to help those who were there... the 3 little girls died..... my brother was the first to discover the one girl who was ejected from the car and my dad cut the seatbelt on another who was still alive..... I feel so bad.  I guess my brother is really shakin up by everything. Oh it just must of been awful!!!!! *wipes tear from eye*

On a good note.... I've added lots of things to Cosmic Pixels... a share me adoption page and a new set.. well really the only set presently. Teehee.

We haven't done much as far as the wedding.... *grunts*  We have however decided (FIANLLY) on the colors... traditionally white and lavendar or a soft purple... purple is my favo color. We have alsooo decided the guys are not wearing bow ties or ties because it's going to be a causual wedding.... I've also choosen lilies for our main flowers and *crosses fingers* I hope to get them in a soft yellow.. how pretty!!!! It's going to be outside, yada yada yada....

Guess thats it for today.....

Have a good one.

 

Hi yas.... here I am again... late ... well early in the morn'...... I made the Qteest bear premade tonight... rossenberry bears... ya'll have to go to Cosmic Pixels to check him out!! http://cosmicpixels.tk

I worked tonight so I wasn't really able to do much as far as drawing or updating, yatta-yatta.. and so on. Cameron spent almost all day with his grandma and Adam worked... so the house was quiet until I went to work. That was nice...ahhh...mommy time... a rare event. Other than the cat climbing the walls (litterly)... it was nice. So onto something fun... hmmm....

1. What do you do for a living?    I'm a photo technician

2. What do you like most about your job?    Seeing everyone's photos...(?)

3. What do you like least about your job?     Dealing with rotten customers

4. When you have a bad day at work it's usually because -- everyone called off and I have to run the whole front store myself... it's happening alot lately. Makes me terriably grumpy.

5. What other career(s) are you interested in?   Computer Programming...that's what I'm going to school for.

1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year.

[1.Loose weight, 2.have at least 1 premade collection complete, 3. Have at least one creditor paid off..*L*, 4. Find a new job, 5. Teach my son to swim!]

2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again.

[ My parents, Becky from England, Randa, My Aunty, Jenn, Harmony]

3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do.

[HTML, CSS, Javascripts, increase my PSP skills, and........drive]

4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit).

[Pay off all my debts immediatly, Pay all bills, buy a house, a car, and send some to my parents.]

5. List five things you do that help you relax.

[read, bath, PSP, sleep, play with my kitty, and go for a walk]

 

Isn't that nice.... okies I'm off to bed!!!

I'm still here.... somewhat now that it's 2 am!!! Thank the goddess I dont' have to work until 5pm tomorrow. I'm rather grumpy tonight... irritable.... don't mean to be... guess just with all that's going on right now... it's expected. I managed to update Cosmic Pixels quite a bit. I haven't done anything with Cosmic Lineart.. but I am making a new calandar... whoppee right?

Just to entertain myself

1. What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?  Pizza with Pineapple on it *gags*

2. Name one (material) thing you can't live without. My Computer

3. Name something you've always wanted to do but didn't have time for. Volunteer @ the animal sheltor

4. What outrageous thing do you wish you had the nerve to do? SKy dive

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend? Working as usual

6. What is your favorite time of year? Summer

7. What is it about your favorite season that, well, makes it your favorite season? It's hott....you can enjoy being outside...the sun is refreshing... I can garden

8. What is your least favorite time of year? Why? Winter- its cold, snow.....snow... and snow

9. Do you do anything to celebrate or recognize the changing of seasons? Sure do... personally I color coordiante everything to match the particular season

10. What's your favorite thing to do outside? Play in the dirt (Garden)

11. What are your favorite ways to relax and unwind? Read a Book or take a bath

12. What do you do the moment you get home from work/school/errands? Check my email

13. What are your favorite aromatherapeutic smells? Lavander

14. Do you feel more relaxed with a group of friends or hanging out by yourself? By me-self

15. What is something that you feel is relaxing but most people don't? I dunno... I like to walk through the cemetary

 

K enough question answering for me today. Hope all is well. Gnight

 

Hey all...

I've fianlly gotten around to making my own page for this journal thing here. For those linking to me please link to http://www.geocities.com/madisonshallow/

 

I have to go to work.. so sorry this is so short!!!

Have a great day!

It's been a terriably long time since I last wrote. *sorry* I've been so wrapped up in making linearts that well....I lost myself in it and haven't updated anything but Cosmic Line Art. *sorry*

I had a giggle the other day... my mom applied for a membership at my site and than pleaded the reasons why she shouldn't pay. That was funny. But I figured.... all the stuff she put up with from me when I was young and all.... *LMAO*

I gurgutated from HTML 101 at Web Tech University--- thank you so much to Marie who was right on top of all my pages!!! Thank you so much! Understand I'm such a nard when it comes to HTML.... really.

Not much about the wedding yet.. we can't decided about almost everything. Go figure.... colors, rings, ect. But we have decided it will be small, in-formal, and a celtic theme. I hope to have a bag pipe player- woudln't the be interesting. Also I'm looking for a song..... ya know when my dad-e-O walks me down the aile.... but I want a celtic song... pretty...soft... and played on the pipes. Anyone have any suggestions?? Please let me know .... I Would love to hear about other's weddings and such.. ideas... ways you did things. I'm almost lost here. *L*

I'm working on my son's site--- fianlly!!! I'll have photos and such posted of him.... he's such a QT pie.

Other than that... hope all is well for everyone!!!

Blessings,

Manda

Hello!!!!

It's been awhile since I've updated. *looks ashamed* I'm sorry. I've been super busy tho. Lemme see... I've changed everything around in Cosmic Pixels and combined it with my new site Cosmic Line Art. Now I offer Premades.... from Cosmic Pixels and everything imaginable behind closed doors in Cosmic Line Art. I love sharing.... so I figured... why not.... just plop it all in one site.. ask for a small fee and let them have at it. Sounds good to me!!!

Not much going on as far as the wedding... I'm still set on that dress!!!! I want it! Adam's eyes about popped out when  I said "Well there's only one thing.....it is $2000" ROTFLMAO SO I think I might have one made here in the states similar. Anyone know a good tailer??? In the states that is.

We have also decided to go with a Celtic/Irish theme. Someday.... I'll move to Ireland I tell you!!! My GREAT grandma is a direct descedant... such intersting history. *G* I asked Adam to wear a kilt... that didn't go over well either... *pouts* In fact alllll the guys said *Umm no*. LMAO> WHy not???? Pure Irish gentleman would be offended no? *G* Aw well.

I just found out tonight my bridesmaid might be moving to the South (out of NY)...*starts freaking out*..... great. That's okay... I got it together... but if I have a complete melt down.... well.... who's going to look after my site?? *L*

I'm in a goofy mood tonight... I had a peaceful night at work.... last minute Easter shoppers... and of course- go figure- one rotten customer*Laughs at self* I probably sound completely delirious tonight.. but I'm sooooo excited about my Line art site.

Alright... that's enough for night.

Blessings,

Manda